{ Your unfailing love over me again.. }

Unlike the world, God doesn't pin your worth on what you can give,

but He pins your worth on His love for you.

- C. Joy

true, that -- have finally realized, after many many disaapointments and hurts, that generally humans as we are, we tend to only care of personal own and worth at times, thinking giving a bit here and there is good enough to meet the quota or standards of a good mate. glad to have a Best Friend who came to my level, and went all out. (love you J.)

self expectations are definitely doomed to fail, as men's views on others does flutuate rather than having the consistency like His -- only He thinks the very best of us in our worsen state that no men can see hope in. He loves and appreciates every single bit of us because we were created in His perfect image, and because we were created to simply be loved by Him.

He does not see our weakness and leave us to fend for our well being -- He saw a need, and met it. not for a split second or less has He ever had any second thoughts of saving us. where the world sees no hope in, God does and showcase it with His heavenly glory for the them to see and know what men cannot use, God can and will mightily -- for He does not work or see how men does.

He does entirely the opposite with ways and thoughts that are higher than all of us combined. from weakness to strength, confused to secured, shaken to stable, that is how our awesome Father can turn things, situations, people, just, like, that. indeed heaven is inside God.

being a giver is a joy and it has birthed out of innate values that the family has characterized, and yet He has shown me (or rather it is coming to a revelation) that pulling back is actually okay. funny how one finds it extremely hard, (yes, true story) because it is like being someone that you're actually not?

unfortunately, i have not met anyone (besides my gracious folks) who have came close, however there are a rare few that have surprised me in various occasions or two. wells it goes to show that the worth on placing our faith in men, or in Him.

normally in a setting of more than one, i tend to find that being so tightly knitted and all, some may be more than comfortable than the usual, and the initial treatment compared to the current one varies. it becomes so much like a family setting which also means the tendancy of being taken advantage of.

been told that plenty of times, and yet it did not ever hit me till now (yes it is never late to learn), that after a number of unexpected and unfortunate inccidents that happend within a close -proximity, my eyes are widen. funny how it does.. shocking as well, including the stinging, but have learnt one thing:

to just go back to The One who have loved us first, so unfailingly. and because of that first love, we are compelled to the needs of others. it is a constant refueling that never ends, never fails, and never disappoints. for indeed, He has been good to us.

"His love and grace is my deepest and intimate true furfillment that puts an end to all other statisfaction.

So undeserving, yet so willing..

You're unfailing love, over me again.."