//F (ather) A (nd) M (other) I L (ove) Y (ou) ..

You know what NAUSEATES me? The fact that at times (the number won’t be mentioned), I treat my family (mainly my Dad) like absolute crap and others (who don’t show me the UNCONDITIONAL LOVE like what my parents and siblings do) like royalty. Now that’s MESSED UP! To the MAX I might add!


Like SERIOUSLY, does the saying "blood is thicker than water" apply in my life? Yes, I do LOVE, CHERISH and HONOUR my folks, but sometimes or all times, actions do speak LOUDER than words.
I don’t think talking back, bickering which amounts to screaming and hollering, using and saying unwanted phrases or words out of anger and even vulgarity (I know I know, there’s no sign of respect there) shows anything of LOVE, CHERISH and HONOUR towards my love ones > ___ , <

THEN WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE THE TENDANCY OF DOING IT?
The worst part of it all, is picking yourself up with the AFTERMATH of a super nasty fight. With the guilt that PLAGUES you and the “ Damnit, why did I say that or do that? ”, makes it all the better to plot up an APOLOGY which the other party (mainly my Dad & Mum and silblings on a lesser note) by now has experienced it like what, a MILLION times already?

With all said and done, I know one thing; it’s NEVER too late to change. Though I’m reaching the point of my woman-hood (don’t laugh), and still behave and think like a 7yr old (what, barbies are cool okay? *pouts and crosses arms*), it’s about time to do someGROWING UP!

Special note to family*
Thank you for taking all my nonsensical crap DAD, MUM, DAD, MIKE, DAD, BEN, DAD, SAM, and oh yar, DAD! I’m extremely BLESSEDwith parents and siblings who DOTE on me so much and OVER-LOOKING my countless amount of flaws and scars that I've left behind. ITHANK the Lord for you guys! 
MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH LOVE.

XOXOXOXOXO

//He takes me back always..

Even when the fight is over now.. And even when the pain is coming through! Always ALWAYS! He'll be there standing and smiling at my disappointed face with his arms open wide, even when I've done things that are displeasing in his eyes. No matter the severity of the matter, He'll invariably welcome me back without any exceptions.

The fact is that I've taken this for granted many MANY times. Which would lead to a buildup of self condemnation and a disgusting sense of infirmity plauging my emotions and endless trail of thoughts. The only way to stablize this so called "disease" would be talking to Him. It's as simple as that, SERIOUSLY!

Just embracing in His presence when I'm alone in my bedroom really brings me a sense of Joy and Peace. Though I'm talking to the ceiling or wall, I somehow know that He's listening and replying back in His own way. So basically I'm having a 2-way convo with a person i can't see face to face, but can DEFINITELY feel heart to heart!

So peoples, whenever you're feeling sad and low.. Just open your mouth and spill EVERYTHING to him! The gift of tongues is also very useful, as it also brings you to another level.. A more intimate and experience of the innermost!

//The time has come, and it's just the beginning..

The Lord truly makes ALL things beautiful IN HIS TIME! No matter how hard we attempt to achieve what we want like rushing, over planning, enforcing the matter(s), it can never turn out the way He planned already.

I'm rejoycing because THE TIME HAS COME! He has answered my prayers of..

i) Finding a PR Company

: I have found my internship and has already started!

ii) A Cell Group

: I have FINALLY joined a cell group from New Cre!

The rest of my prayers are still pending but IN HIS TIME, it will reveal itself and come to life not because I deserve it,

but because HE L.O.V.E.S ME.

xx

//Launching into the deep..

and letting down my NETS for a CATCH! Yesh, I stole that from the good old book of Luke! But the actual reference would be:

Luke 5:44

"When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch."

So what does this verse mean? Well first of all, it means a lot to me as it applies to my life right now! And second of all, it means that God is going to BLESS me BIG BIG TIME! So why wait?

That's why I'm launching into the deep (Aka: Going into the unkown and doing something that I've never dreamt of or thought I would actually do it) and letting down my nets for a catch! (Aka: Getting hold of the PLENTIFUL ABUNDANCE and OVER-FLOWING BLESSING!

I was once scared, but now I'm FREE! FREE from the dependence of holding on to people and not going out by myself! Free from the 'shoulda woulda coulda' syndrome and of course, the buts! FREE from the fear of what is going to happen and lastly, FREE from my own self inflicted emotions that are the source of my worries and fear of trying out new things and going beyond the things that I would normally do!

Mann, the Lord is truly so SO good to us! Really! He has seen us through everything, the good AND the bad! Mountain or no mountain, valley or no valley, we should STILL praise him no matter the situation! Because HE'S the GOD that is ABOVE ALL powers, ALLnature, ALL created things, ALL wisdom of men, ALL kingdoms, thrones, and ALL wealth and treasures of the earth!

" Like a rose.. Trampled on the ground.. You took the fall.. And thought of me.. Above all! "

Thank you Yeshua – It is done.

;; I know you L.O.V.E me!