(continued from previous post)
this not just a lesson that is a hit for the first or second time, and then you give yourself some self-justification in a form of a pat on the back. it is a constant value that needs to be implemented on a daily basis -- especially during those testing period of intense relationships with the ones who are exceptionally close.
not saying that one is pros even when it is practiced most of the time, because no one at their own righteous mind-set deserves what He has gracefully (without a doubt) given to us. just as we are freely forgiven, and if one truly knows the heart of our Saviour King, it will birth forth into a continuous action rather than just a good verse to say amen to.
still working in progress with this one, and it is a divine lesson due to a current and a couple of other past experiences of dealing with hurt and absence of relationship values from the ones whom you completely did not cross your mind in doing so – and the scary thing is that they do not even realize, reasons with a need to change only at the other party’s end and conjures this narcissistic thinking of one being “left behind”.
to say that to one’s very own personal walk with Him is beyond criticism which the recipient of that strong statement is left speechless. ironic as one is also hit with the comment of being fault finding in other’s own journey as well which never once was practiced. honestly, that is one of the few areas that i would never place a judgement or own two cents about. the only person rightfully to judge is Him and He does not even go there.
funny how people are so centered in their own shoes rather than ever using a moment or two to see how would it be like to be in another pair. and to think they conquered it once, they have this security in their right doing for that time, building up a wall of confidence that they are almost there and not knowing it’s a continuous action when faced with difficult situations.
have realized that what people are so aware of in others, is actually brewing in their very own area of concern such as sensitivity or building a wall up. what they so firmly believe in that is in the other party has unknowingly being eternalized in their own character and thinking. what you feed on is what it will manifest. yes, it is a battle of being insecurity which everyone has different levels of dealing with it.
it is erroneous to think there are deeper issues that one have without a hint of discernment among what seems obvious. there is a difference when men look unto their wide knowledge or experiences comparative to what He can reveal.
to be blowing up for being assumed at with a question, and yet doing just the same but with a statement this time hits the ‘personal’ zone very intensely. and with that caused one to look forth what is really going on which everything was let out to begin with.
after weeks of seeking Him about it, it has brought forth a sense of not ever basing on anyone’s affirmation or thoughts towards us – despite being good or bad, have learnt to not say the “right” thing to soothe the ears of another, and to not change for anybody.
everything that has surfaced has already been transparent, and yet putting forth a assurance of being ‘more than’ just as it is is a lack of judgement on truly knowing one’s heart. that can be easily said comparative to putting it in action, and unfortunately it does not match up. one has been more than real in situations that only He would know, yet being doubted is a question to put forth in a relationship and what it stands on.
people remember your words because it has either created a dent or lift. in both cases, it carries power and changes the direction of situations. even blind freddy can tell the severity of this one which in this case goes to show that if one never learns, they never will. being aware of one’s own actions and faults is not one to change by their own strength but rather surrendering it entirely to Him to refine and mould -- Men’s fire leaves you burnt, but God’s fire leaves you unharmed and polished.
with the many experiences of tension from another female party does not lie on the one experiencing it, but rather on the one who is giving it out. no point trying to pacify them as they are not stable in their own identity and hence sabotages others who are -- and this comes in a very subtle and indirect form. one even dares to question your longitivty and quality of friendships with the rest of the sisterhood which in this case, have backfired.
It is very easy to finger point, find faults and blind spotting on others, but that is not what He has called us all to do. there is a difference when correction is done in love and you know when it is do by how it is let out and received by the other party.
learnt that even if we have the goodness in our hearts, but it comes of wrong, it is still wrong – execution of His grace is birthed from being secured from it hence it produces right living. it is not only about the inside but likewise for the outside. one needs to be mindful of what is put forth externally as it is only Him who knows our heart and no one else.
the number of people who have hurt me were not ones that were from a distant but rather of close proximity and relations. ones that your wall is completely down, trust is at full reign and giving is never ending because never a doubt you would think that they of all people can cause such a wound among the circle of love and encouragement -- instead of killing me (though it may have felt like death), it has made me stronger.
though all this, forgiveness is key to an offense creating an antidote to the wound. and it is not just a one off solution but rather a relentless one to be conscious of. and wisdom is to see whether if it is time to stay or move on. and like He has already promised, whatever new He is prepping, I am ready. because one is tired of the old wine skin.
this would be the very last of any mention of this – even nice people have limits. have learnt from an ample of situations where the word enough is at its end of being capped and bold. time to rise above your neighbour’s affirmation and expectations and remove all forms of toxic relationships.
soul detox has already begun.
and where would I be without the security of Him telling me “who I am, and Whose I am” (k. vallotton).
"i am Yours, and forever will be."
this not just a lesson that is a hit for the first or second time, and then you give yourself some self-justification in a form of a pat on the back. it is a constant value that needs to be implemented on a daily basis -- especially during those testing period of intense relationships with the ones who are exceptionally close.
not saying that one is pros even when it is practiced most of the time, because no one at their own righteous mind-set deserves what He has gracefully (without a doubt) given to us. just as we are freely forgiven, and if one truly knows the heart of our Saviour King, it will birth forth into a continuous action rather than just a good verse to say amen to.
still working in progress with this one, and it is a divine lesson due to a current and a couple of other past experiences of dealing with hurt and absence of relationship values from the ones whom you completely did not cross your mind in doing so – and the scary thing is that they do not even realize, reasons with a need to change only at the other party’s end and conjures this narcissistic thinking of one being “left behind”.
to say that to one’s very own personal walk with Him is beyond criticism which the recipient of that strong statement is left speechless. ironic as one is also hit with the comment of being fault finding in other’s own journey as well which never once was practiced. honestly, that is one of the few areas that i would never place a judgement or own two cents about. the only person rightfully to judge is Him and He does not even go there.
funny how people are so centered in their own shoes rather than ever using a moment or two to see how would it be like to be in another pair. and to think they conquered it once, they have this security in their right doing for that time, building up a wall of confidence that they are almost there and not knowing it’s a continuous action when faced with difficult situations.
have realized that what people are so aware of in others, is actually brewing in their very own area of concern such as sensitivity or building a wall up. what they so firmly believe in that is in the other party has unknowingly being eternalized in their own character and thinking. what you feed on is what it will manifest. yes, it is a battle of being insecurity which everyone has different levels of dealing with it.
it is erroneous to think there are deeper issues that one have without a hint of discernment among what seems obvious. there is a difference when men look unto their wide knowledge or experiences comparative to what He can reveal.
to be blowing up for being assumed at with a question, and yet doing just the same but with a statement this time hits the ‘personal’ zone very intensely. and with that caused one to look forth what is really going on which everything was let out to begin with.
after weeks of seeking Him about it, it has brought forth a sense of not ever basing on anyone’s affirmation or thoughts towards us – despite being good or bad, have learnt to not say the “right” thing to soothe the ears of another, and to not change for anybody.
everything that has surfaced has already been transparent, and yet putting forth a assurance of being ‘more than’ just as it is is a lack of judgement on truly knowing one’s heart. that can be easily said comparative to putting it in action, and unfortunately it does not match up. one has been more than real in situations that only He would know, yet being doubted is a question to put forth in a relationship and what it stands on.
people remember your words because it has either created a dent or lift. in both cases, it carries power and changes the direction of situations. even blind freddy can tell the severity of this one which in this case goes to show that if one never learns, they never will. being aware of one’s own actions and faults is not one to change by their own strength but rather surrendering it entirely to Him to refine and mould -- Men’s fire leaves you burnt, but God’s fire leaves you unharmed and polished.
with the many experiences of tension from another female party does not lie on the one experiencing it, but rather on the one who is giving it out. no point trying to pacify them as they are not stable in their own identity and hence sabotages others who are -- and this comes in a very subtle and indirect form. one even dares to question your longitivty and quality of friendships with the rest of the sisterhood which in this case, have backfired.
It is very easy to finger point, find faults and blind spotting on others, but that is not what He has called us all to do. there is a difference when correction is done in love and you know when it is do by how it is let out and received by the other party.
learnt that even if we have the goodness in our hearts, but it comes of wrong, it is still wrong – execution of His grace is birthed from being secured from it hence it produces right living. it is not only about the inside but likewise for the outside. one needs to be mindful of what is put forth externally as it is only Him who knows our heart and no one else.
the number of people who have hurt me were not ones that were from a distant but rather of close proximity and relations. ones that your wall is completely down, trust is at full reign and giving is never ending because never a doubt you would think that they of all people can cause such a wound among the circle of love and encouragement -- instead of killing me (though it may have felt like death), it has made me stronger.
though all this, forgiveness is key to an offense creating an antidote to the wound. and it is not just a one off solution but rather a relentless one to be conscious of. and wisdom is to see whether if it is time to stay or move on. and like He has already promised, whatever new He is prepping, I am ready. because one is tired of the old wine skin.
this would be the very last of any mention of this – even nice people have limits. have learnt from an ample of situations where the word enough is at its end of being capped and bold. time to rise above your neighbour’s affirmation and expectations and remove all forms of toxic relationships.
soul detox has already begun.
and where would I be without the security of Him telling me “who I am, and Whose I am” (k. vallotton).
"i am Yours, and forever will be."
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