{ NO MORE. Pt. 3 }

only someone's true character is revealed in rough circumstances. interesting how the ugliness of one's flesh is stood to its lowest as it purely thinks of self, and never about others.

i have seen it, not once, not a couple, but plenty to say it once and for all, have witnessed enough of one's reaction towards being civil, especially in a place of serenity and hearing of grace. funny, in His very own house.

instead one chose to completely be shut to even a drop of human decency and compassion, and immaturely decides to erase another's presence and existence. funny, in His very own presence.

right at that state, the heart was drilled with pain and hurt beyond the numbness, and the words declaring of one's care and love, holds no weight no longer, and has plummeted on the ground and lifeless.

normally i would feel heavily condemned about just letting it go, beyond the matter of being right and wrong. this is the very first of letting it go, without that feeling attached.

have already told Him once and for all, that i do not have any desire of with-keeping one's relationship any longer. no more will i be bothered or even compelled with my own heart and emotions which goes no where. just flowing with the forgiveness, pulled by His grace, strength to go through this.

this would be the very last time of mentioning one and the unfortunate situation - which did not begin on my end, and only repeated to my face and caused a desperation of finding a possible reason and solution. indeed the more we use our flesh, the more we fail -- a big lesson has been learnt, but it has also come with another enlargement.

have truly and finally set free and let loose the last hope on one, rather than the situation which did mean deep to me. until He moves, i will not be compelled by my own compassion and grace, which gets by unappreciated and unacknowledged, not even to the very least.

civil one cannot be, shows one's true heart for the other - not by words but by living it out. unfortunately, like a child, one can play out goes to show that everyone's progression and maturity in life differs; no matter the experience or age. and instead of a mere human attempt to reach out, everything is now, in His hands.

no more stronghold.
the only hold now, is His arms of grace.
my soul is (finally) free.

"seasons change, people go, but You Lord, are forever the same.
Your love is truly the only one, that never fails.
so undeserved, yet You hold no reserve."

now my eyes are completely on You.