Enjoying the ride.

Watching people ending one part of their lives and starting anew is rather a bittersweet emotion.

Yes, when one door closes another opens.

But what about all the past experiences that happened?

Does it fade into a distant memory,

remaining behind the closed door and never opened again?

(L)ife (I)s (F)ull of (Endings) are not always disney inspired with an happily after tag to it.

Being happy is not our very aim as it does vary;

mostly according to our happenings.

However rather being mature prepares you for your let down moments,

 And builds a shield which does not affect you that much as it may have before.

Ultimately, who says we are living for ourselves?

I realize when you step out of your comfort zone,

into your new, He meets you there.

It is like He has not only been waiting at the finish line,

but walking with you also.

He is near, right here, at this present moment, in your every second, during your daily life;

Loving, gracing, hugging, kissing and embracing every part of you.

Doubt your doubts and trust in the greatness of our Abba Father and how everything is possible for Him. 

He is on our side and we shall enjoy the ride.

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I surrender* all.

How come when one part of your life seems to pick up,

The other does your head in?

Funny how life works that way.

Fortunately He reminds us to 'be of good cheer'.

Hard to say when things are unsettled.

It darkens your light of hope and brings you to a point of desperation.

"Why God, why me?"

Pslams 62:8

"Trust in Him at all times; ye people,

Pour out your heart before Him.

God is a refuge for us.

Selah."

I'd  experience a number of events of break downs,

 And this is time I have decided:

"Enough is enough!"

Going to take back the authority, make a stand, refuse to back down

 And have Him as my sole refuge.

Based not on my strength because it will not last, but of His *.

My love, joy and peace shall not be stolen but restored.

Everything that lacks, He meets it and gives us more.

You bring me life, You bring me hope, You're all I need I Lord.

[Moving on]

Beginning to question what your future upholds,

 Is a ride that one should not take.

With blurry vision and assumptions going against what He has promised us,

It brings us to wondering:

"Is this it?" or "Are you sure God?"

We have big dreams;

Ones that seem hard to reach and come by if based on our limited thinking.

Humans as we are, realism and logic is simpler hence easier to trust.

If so, we are definitely putting our faith to waste.

Our ultimate source to all things is Him.

Everything and anything comes from Him and through Him.

Isn't that how the whole earth, universe, milky ways and planets were formed?

Yet we question His orchestrated blessings for us.

Dare I put doubt on our maker and creator?

He is the one with the eagle eye view,

 whilst we only choose what we want to see.

I know what I want.

But do I know what He wants for me?

I surrender all.

God of all things new.

Soft spots are the hardest to get rid off.
They always seem to be deepened inside the walls of your heart,
Previous emotions still triggers your very core.
Familiar feelings begins to unfold, and you are now reminiscing slowly into your past.

Regretting and wishing what could have been is one of the very side effects.

You start to paint a picture of the events you desired to happen, but never did.

Condemning the fact that you have missed out on what was yet so amazing back then.

What was treasured is now been lost and there is no road to going back.

The sign of no entry screams move on.
So why are we still back to where we were?

God is a God of all things new.

He multiplies what was lost, and replace it with His abundance.
Double potions are ours for the taking.
And we do not just start back at one, but are new creation-ers.

No turning back, just moving forward.

I need my space.

This is very moment where I just want to be alone.

Not caring of being self-fish,

but it is the only place of solitude I comfort in.

How can one breath with so much going on

Back at one.

I'm coming to The Father. Back to the first love.

[1 John 4:19]

What can separate me now?

Done and finally made up my mind.

I am done, and finally made up my mind.

This is it. 

Trusts in Your spirit and favor.

Your grace* is enough, more than I need.

And that is the only thing that is keeping me afloat.
I question my situation and place my cares upon it.

As Psalm 23 goes,

" You are my shepherd and I will not lack. " 

Nor would I want because with You, I have got everything.
Only green pastures and overflowing rivers are my hiding place.

Where ever you lead me Lord, I shall follow.

So here goes:

(Gives you my hand and walking with You.)

Breaking Down, Picking Up & Swinging It.

Four major breakdowns (inc. the last one five minutes ago),

and I've yet seen the light.

Clueless and confused for the reason for all the drama and tears,
my emotions are left bare and dry.

I have cried enough.
I have fight enough.
I have worried enough.

When will this end?

My answer is only You.
And I'm going to stick to that no matter what.

Mode: Picking up the sword and ready to swing it.

Jesus, You can take over now.

Lord I come to You

Let my heart be changed, renewed

Flowing from the grace

That I found in You.

And Lord I've come to know

The weaknesses I see in me

Will be stripped away

By the power of Your love.

Hold me close

Let Your love surround me

Bring me near

Draw me to Your side.

And as I wait

I'll rise up like the eagle

And I will soar with You

Your Spirit leads me on

In the power of Your love.

Lord unveil my eyes

Let me see You face to face

The knowledge of Your love

As You live in me.

Lord renew my mind

As Your will unfolds in my life

In living every day

In the power of Your love.

- The Power of Your Love, Hillsong.

I surrender all.

Jesus, You can take over now.

(Soaring with You, Having You to lead me on In the power of Your love)

Never needed You so much than ever before.

Not for a blessing,

Not for a need,

or Not in a state of helplessness, 

But just to want to know you more. 

To go forth into a deeper relationship that I have never venture in;

A place into the holies of holies. 

Your word is my very desire for my yearning soul.

I want more and more of You Jesus.

So much that I would not be able to comprehend. 

Such love and grace that is indescribable.

That is all mine and I am going to enjoy it all. 

"Who can fathom the depths of Your love?"

All I need is You Lord.

I thirst for You.
I'm hungry for Your presence.
Come and fill me now.


Make me alive in Your word.

Tired of doing it my way.

It seems like everything is going on fast forward mode.
Things that you expect to happen is already put in action.

With that said, I've been tired of doing it my way.
"His ways are higher than our ways.."


Giving him the wheel and enjoying being driven around is bliss.

All we are doing is seating and soaring whilst in a resting position.
 Life is meant to be light and easy; carefree with an utter God-like dependency.



Hence letting him lead us would make things less complicated and more enjoyable.

So why not be the sheep following the shepherd?

"His rod and staff comforts us.."
 #P23

#conviction: YOU.

YOU

are the reason.

More of a journey than a destination.

[Continuation from the previous entry]

Stubborn and rebellious is not a good combo.

Mix it up with a rage of emotions and a not so pretty picture is painted.

Wanting your way and nothing else seems like the way to go.

Why not? It's your life anyways right?

That was what I thought and felt.

Built up inside was just anger and frustration of not knowing what was going on.

Blurry and lost, I tend to become very impatient hence my sudden reaction of giving up.

Maybe the journey that we all long for has already started without us knowing?

We pray for an answer where it was in our face all along.

There is a high chance of us already living our dreams out.

All we need to do, is open our eyes and our hearts to Him.

It is more of the journey than the destination.

Eventually we're going to get there, hence why don't we enjoy the ride?

We struggle to do it His ways as we only see ours.

All it does, is make the journey a difficult one.

Instead of going left, we turn right.

Instead of going front, we go back.

Instead of walking, we run.

Our Savior King knows best.

Follow what the Shepherd is leading you.

He cares for you and have sufficient grace for all that we may experience in great difficulties

This is it.

My mind's made up.

Goodbye Perth.