{ Fire Starter Pt. 2 }

"I don't know why or where it came from, but I have always been possessed with a sense that I was born to change the world. To be clear, I have never felt capable, nor have I felt that I had much to offer, but that has never deterred me from the deep need to influence the world.

When I was a little boy I used to visualize and pretend that I had a helicopter and I was bringing food to African children. When I was in my 20s-30s I wanted to be president of the United States, (I finally realized that it was pretty unlikely since I had barely passed high school).

My guess is that God put this in me because I wasn't raised around people with passion to make a difference...never the less, it is a fire in my bones.

There are times that I wish this drive wasn't in me because if I don't manage it, it tends to manage me. I start to believe that it's my responsibility to make "things" happen. This never works out to good for me.

In these seasons I often find myself envying people who are laid-back and seem to just take life as it comes. "Live and live," they say. In some ways it would be nice to not feel the responsibly to transform the world, make a difference, or be so intense about life. But how do you change who you are? I am learning to be patient with myself and also with others who are wired different."

_K. Vallotton