from an event which i thought would be liberating as much was needed to be cleared, it was entirely the very opposite. guess we can never rely on good expectations on man as some may fail us.
thank G. He is the only One that never fails.
being utterly speechless the whole entire time and holding back as i was listening (while I was not paid back the same much), there was never once a connection, never once a sense of care of the actual situation, never once wisdom sprouted, and never once discernment used. and yes, never is a strong term.
it was rather surprising as much respect and honor was placed and now it is only by grace (and i mean extreme amounts of it) that i would be able to see it now. aren't we all in working in progress?
have not experienced so much hurt like never before, and did not realized it when i was talking to mum and had to pause while very rarely, i'd a hurtful cry. have placed much value in which was meant very dearly to me and now i have to painfully let it go?
going to STAND and face the first one up for the very last time, and after that, it will be rebuilding from the very beginning. where to have that strength and tenacity, is sourcing from the very One Himself.
re-stand, re-store, re-new, and re-buildt.
through it all, besides G. who i can faithfully lean on to, it would be the number one blessing in my life which is familee and then kingdom mateship, who i can vouch to say carries His big heart of love around.
oh how He loves, through Him and through the hearts of others.
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