{ Yet, again. }

yet another learning and humbling experience:

worthship: "because You gladly lean to lead the humble, i shall gladly kneel to leave my pride." (hillsong)

dishearten about how one is trying, yet being put down again. yes we do not trust in men's words alone, but the initial stages (which is now) is quite hard to take in and manage. correction is key in times of enlargement and growth, but how does one differ that from being incompetent and not given a moment to improve?

worthship: "i dare not trust the sweetest frame, but wholly trust in Jesus' name." (hymn)

ignoring the let down, i plugged into worship to uplift the spirit again. even with hearing words of hope, of humility, of praise, of grace, of Jesus, even with those anointed phrases covering the thoughts and emotions which are not, the heart is still at unrest and plagued with cares of many others pertaining to the dearest of them all, family.

rev: "you need not need to worry, for I have already taken care of everything at the cross." (Jesus)

being real in front of God, and uploading to Him, does not makes things better, but it does make one feel loved over and over again, and not ever needing anything to bring satisfaction to the Giver. He is the only one that loves every bit of our being, and not only loves our flaws but turns them into our strength as He imparts us with His.

word: "My strength is only made perfect in your very weakness." (Jesus)

He appreciates us for who we are, and for how we worship, and that is more than enough for me. He adores what He has created, and perfects it in His righteousness, and secures it in His love. let no one and nothing steal that away.

"Lord, let me never forget the reason of why we worship You, and that the platform is only built for One which is You who deserves all the glory and honour. have us a heart that is solely after You, and is secured by trusting in Your very name itself.

let us also die to our very self, leave our pride, and be willing to take in Godly correction in love which will cause us never be satisfied or contented with what we have, but uplifts us for what we have not seen. this is our worthship for who You are."