yays, my clock work system has gone back to normal - no more panda eyes, tossing, turning and being ol'zombified -.- good mornin' sunshine - acutally got up and ate some mackers breakie.. haven't done that for yonks!
just came back from PS - saw jon and hady today, and may i add, jon looks amazing in real life! so much better compared to being on tv! no, i wasnt one of those screaming sweaty highsch girlies, who would go all hardcore and would do anything to get their idols attention (nothing wrong with btw). i was just admiring from afar.. - [mesmerized] kris and jean reckons he looks like a beng (in eng: azian gansta?), thats fine with me cos i'm mainly attracted to his voice and talents anyway ^-^
this wk has been same old, just nerding, bumming and lotssa eating outs (gonna have to cut that habit of mine). it seems like everything and everyone around me are changing.. they are just moving ahead and doing their thang. well i'm stuck back herre roaming around by myself. is this what growing up is all about? changes? iknow iknow.. but when i think of any alterations in my life, good or bad, fear just creeps up on me - just scared of the new and the unknown i guess.. - [sigh] everytime these feelings start to develop, i just rmb "i can do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING in Christ who strengtens me!"
enough with the contemplating, and being all afraid of whats gonna happen in the future! the only one that i'm gonna put my upmost concentration and faith on is HIM, the one above, watching me, listening to me, and unconditionally loving me for me! i'd a one on one with Him the other night, and i truly feel His presence roaming around my room as i was crying out to Him. He is truly and ultimately the only one who can dry my tears away.. He's more than my box of tissue paper.. He's my heavenly daddy.. my ALL!*
good things happen to us not because we deserve it, but because he loves us! man, its a tough job for someone to love a sinner like me. words cannot even come forth to explain the adoration.. but the cross can - much love to you JC.
SHOUTOUT: to my girl vicky*
you's must be excitied about LONDON BABY (sorry i always have to add that in, hee hee). i'm so happy and excited for this new journey of yours that your gonna uncover! months and months of planning and talking, and bam, reality hits. you'll be always always in my prayers darls. may the Lord guide you, and protect you, and watch over you in everywhere you go and everything you do. He's our provider so don't worry and just seek His kingdom and everything that you seek (inc things above those) would be added unto you - taken from matt 6:33.
heart you so much bella - [hugs you tight], and i cant wait to see you again and hear from all the wonderful things, experience, places and people that you have encountered that are gonna be a marvellous blessing to you - and vice versa. happy packing darls and have a safe flight (: take care of your beautiful self alrites? God bless you hone - mwackxxx!
- thinking of you always, miss you and lurp you very muchies*
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