{ Back to LIFE! }

"Our God is a resurrection God,

a God that can bring back to life what you thought was dead.

He is a God who can do exceedingly, abundantly, above and beyond what we ask or think.

He is a healer, a restorer, and a God who gives beauty for ashes."

J. Osteen

Back to life. and this time, it is not one of mine own..
but His, living in and through me.

Healing rain is pouring down, 

and I am not afraid.

{ 효린(Hyorin/SISTAR) - Today, If The Same Night (by Park Jung-Woon) }

{ Appreciate the now, Later will always come.. }

was watching click yesterday with mum, and though its a comedy, i was always get myself teary-eyed at this one scene at the end, where adam sandler was nearing his death -- he started to profess his love and advice to his family which he had neglected previously due to his own career ambitions.

there and then, is where it finally clicked (seriously, with no pun intended). it is time to truly appreciate what God has got for us now, instead of always opting to chase after what we want installed in our future. as He said it is done, then why do we act like it may or may not be?

the present is what makes the future and if we miss it, we still get to the destination but once we get there, it goes back to the vicious cycle of tending to look ahead, then to look around and taking time to smell and taste what He has got in front of us.

every season is meant to be enjoyed as it always prepares us for the next one. He never stops working in our lives and to be secured to that, results in a life dependancy of God and hanging on to all His ways, hanging on to Him saying what He would do, and hanging on to His love (Break Free, Hillsong).

"for as God has said so, its as good as already done."

we got big dreams, which God has very intention to fulfill. for everything comes to pass through His hands and not ours, is time to live according to not the world's rhythms, or even our carnal ones, but His rhythms of grace.

{ Back to the purpose of Serving.. }

we have a tendancy to forget the richness of our history, after we hit the period of redundancy or worse yet, complainciency. and is one thing i will never want in my walk with Him, and as well as serving in His house -- whatever and wherever it may be.

been harping on coming back to the purpose of all things, and He has truly opened the heart of my eyes to not only where He has saved us from, but as well as tasting His faithfulness in every season of our lives -- it is like a fruit that comes throughout the season; rain or shine, it is still there.

after a year of being privileged with serving in the ministry which i have deemed longed for since a teen, He has taught me quite a bit actually. haha, with humility and submission being the top of the list. yes what happened to God exaltation instead of men right? boy He definitely hit that right from the park.

being able to worship at the overflow, came to realized that the anointing of worship was really just the same. His presence truly cannot be contained, and He cannot help but overflow beyond the four main walls that we are so use to being at.

for Him, the King of heaven, the Saviour who was going to save us all, the Healer, the Provider, (and the list is just never-ending, meeting every single need and cry), to wash the feet of His disciples, with His actual hands, the hands that was going to bleed for us, is one extremely humbling act to be convicted and transformed with.

Jesus never let the label wear Him, and hence it never limited His area of serving. He served the moment there was a need, He healed the moment that was sickness, He provided the moment there was lack. never did He once paused, He just simply did it with willingness and love that transcends to every deed He gracefully met.

oh there is much to learn from You Lord.

"Servant and King, rescued the world, THIS IS OUR GOD!"
- R. Morgan

{ Back to His Word.. }

This Is Serious Business, Rebels

The god Bel falls down, god Nebo slumps.
The no-god hunks of wood are loaded on mules.
And have to be hauled off, wearing out the poor mules—
Dead weight, burdens who can't bear burdens, hauled off to captivity.

Listen to me, family of Jacob,
everyone that's left of the family of Israel.
I've been carrying you on my back,
from the day you were born,
And I'll keep on carrying you when you're old.
I'll be there, bearing you when you're old and gray.
I've done it and will keep on doing it,
carrying you on my back, saving you.

"So to whom will you compare me, the Incomparable? 
Can you picture me without reducing me?
People with a lot of money hire craftsmen to make them gods.
The artisan delivers the god,
and they kneel and worship it!
They carry it around in holy parades,
then take it home and put it on a shelf.
And there it sits, day in and day out,
a dependable god, always right where you put it.
Say anything you want to it, it never talks back.
Of course, it never does anything either!

"Think about this. Wrap your minds around it.
This is serious business, rebels. Take it to heart.
Remember your history, your long and rich history.
I am God, the only God you've had or ever will have—
incomparable, irreplaceable—
From the very beginning
telling you what the ending will be,
All along letting you in
on what is going to happen,
Assuring you, 'I'm in this for the long haul,
I'll do exactly what I set out to do,'
Calling that eagle, Cyrus, out of the east,
from a far country the man I chose to help me.
I've said it, and I'll most certainly do it.
I've planned it, so it's as good as done.

"Now listen to me:
You're a hardheaded bunch and hard to help.
I'm ready to help you right now.
Deliverance is not a long-range plan.
Salvation isn't on hold.
I'm putting salvation to work in Zion now,
and glory in Israel."

- Isaiah 46 (Message)

{ Back to His leading.. }

ever wondered that with the impact and feeback of revelations that you have imparted on someone, are just humble reminders that we constantly need to hear?

but how about a switch-a-foo for a change?

really do not mind being at the receiving end, gleaming earnestly at a m.o.g or w.o.g (either than Jesus or a pastoral figure or your folks).. think the time for mentorship has came back again, and stronger.

it is a joy to witness the influence He has placed inside each and everyone of us, and with every word of what has been uttered is a humbling experience to re-hear what He has placed in you first, and then later coming out at the end of someone else's mouth and heart.

how He reaches to the magnitude to help inspire and create a deeper desire for Him is phenomenal -- and it is all Him. who else can reach that deep?

so would it honestly be mad if i ask for the best? show me Lord, show me Your way, lead me to Your will, and may we constantly glimpse on only one person, and that is the beauty of You.

"i wanna fly.. and keep on flying.. and never stay on the ground."

{ Mum's B'day @ Keppel.. }

mum comforting lil' bex.

lil' bex's first b'day celebration w/ mum.

aws @ mum & dad, the love's still strong.

lil' bex & a classic daddy on a shoulder photo w/ mike.

{ Back to His love.. - Pt. 2 }

"first Love, my first Love, my soul longs after You..

first Love, my first Love, i want my heart to stay so true..

because You first loved me, Jesus You will always be..

You will always be, my first Love."

- first love by unknown

how timely.. especially in the season where we are in for changes that are happening around our environment, and likewise world wide. for us to go back to where He has all started, goes to show His upmost faithfulness and constant love for us from beginning till the end.

it is the journey that we have to humbly learn to enjoy rather than the tendency of foreseeing the destination, expecting microwave and five minute instant noodles results.

He is stirring in His greatness.. His empowerment.. His kingdom.. in the ones who are called by the Father, to do the extraordinary in natural circumstances.

it is time to only shine, but shine brighter because He has created us to be His light; a light that never fades -- "like the rising sun that shines.." (awakening by hillsong)

to be spirtually and inwardly awakened, is a preview of the manifestation of the giftings and workings that He has for us. more so, the coming out of His kingdom that He has placed inside of us -- the things of God cannot be contained, it only has one direction and that is, OUT.

"Jesus replied, This is the work (service) that God asks of you:

that you believe in the One whom He has sent

[that you cleave to, trust, rely on, and have faith in His Messenger]."

- John 6:29, Amplified.

{ Ministry starts at home! }

just ended an awesome fellowship sesh with Dad as it has been quite awhile.. realized how i missed it much and His anointing and ease just flowed through every word of love and encouragement. i will say this again, besides God and Jesus, there's Dad and Mum -- true story!

and it will take beyond countless of blog entries and words to contain how much they have both impacted my siblings and my life. truly God awesome "oldies" (haha) who are so full of His astronomical grace (Dad's fave words) are the number two blessings in our lives besides His relationship with us.

#family is always on His mind and ministry starts at home!

realized that who we are at wherever He has placed us to be, should not change who we are at home. as BJ quotes: "who i am at the pulpit, should be who i am at home."

it is time to allow Him to transform us from the inside out starting at the place that we deem the most comfort of being our true and raw self, our very own home -- where behind doors, where no one is looking, where the public is no where in sight, is where we find our behavior alining to the one that the rest of the world sees.

{ Back to Him.. Pt. 1 }

Ever felt that what you are right now, where you are right now, and who you are with right now, all came with a purpose?

Is this like, yes I know I'm blessed, I know I'm favored, I know I'm loved, I know I'm saved and forgiven, but what is the true reason behind all of that? Definitely not only for our own happy and bless me living but for His very kingdom cause which I want to personally go back to.

Enough with familiarities and the typical routines that we are so formally attached to and occasionally get lost in. And definitely definitely enough with the stain glass masquerade I have got it all together vibe that we have it going all the time.

Time to get real with God and His people -- It is only then His glory can shine through our very own weakness and ugliness of human waste. There the world will know that it not of man, but of Him.

Desperately with my heart and soul want to go back where He has saved me from to the person I am now. Just to go back to the true meaning of what His grace is all about. Go back to His feet and laying everything down. Go back to being humble in His presence of unending love.

No more pretense God. Fill me now.

Do not just want a life of my own, desires or wants or dreams or anything of me, I want a life of Your will to be done on our earth as it is in heaven. This is why we are living and breathing on this earth to make a huge impact of a difference in.

And simply come to and declaring, with no complications or man made religious philosophies, that God is good, God is able and God is love! That's all.

Okay back to Mum as she has been patiently waiting for my hands to get into her hair. Time to be His hands and feet. First up, Mum's mane. Bahaha. Random. Oh bless her.

{ Back at Your feet.. (Where it all started) Pt. 3 }

Rhythms of Grace by Hillsong United

V1.
My life is a life for your cause
My will laid aside for your call
And reserved all the depth Of my heart
Only for You

V2.
I'm caught in the rhythms of grace
They overcome all of my ways
We align in each step that we take
To live for Your glory

C.
There's none beside You God
There's none beside You God

V3.
You're there in dark of the night
While holding the sun and its light
Through the triumph and trials alike
There's no one beside You

V4.
Your voice calls the stars by their name
You whisper them all to their place
To testify of Your wonder and praise
Both now and forever

B.
I live my life to shine Your light
'Cause there is none beside You God

No eye has seen
No ear has heard
The depths of Your love Lord
No mind can fathom
The love You deserve
How great You are

{ Back at Your feet - Pt.2 }

"We can never box God in.. And the creativity He has in each and everyone of us .." (JD)

"I don't wanna write songs that pleases every Christian out there.. I wanna write heaven songs.. that connect people everywhere.. those who are searching.." (Joel Houston)

"With everything we got, use it for the glory of God, however that looks.." (JD)

"At the end of the day, I want people to hear our music, feel closer to who God is...that's what its all about" (Joel Houston)

{ Back at Your feet - Pt. 1 }

"The nature of what we do is that we can worship with them and experience God's presence with them. Its a selfless act, has nothing to do with us..." - Dylan Thomas (Hillsong UNITED)

{ i lay it all down.. }

all of it;

every, single, one.

take it all.

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G., You're all that i have now,

in my heart, mind, soul and body.

in Your control and will.

{ Beautiful Saviour Pt. 1 }

'Beautiful Savior' by Planetshakers

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Jesus, beautiful Saviour.

Call upon His name,
THE name above ALL names.

"Jesus, save me now."

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You Lord, the most beautiful being, unyet You chose to sacrifice Yourself in the most ugliest death ever thought possible, in the truest form of a man, and while beaten, bled and nailed, thought about us ABOVE ALL.

can never phantom Your great love sacrifice, but I who was once a sinner, and now eternally righteous, will be forever singing:

"Jesus, i love You."

[TBC.]